“True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.”

Man, OH man!!!...was this weekend the greatest! :) So, Ej and Rafael are moving to Dallas...which is truly depressing because they have grown to become one of my true best friends in such a short period of time.....that's definitely a unique friendship there! :>

On Friday, spent the night at there house with the rest of my greatest friends in the world: maricel, jordan, jerson, kiana, my bro & sis. we made every moment count from eating food to watching shutter [which was hella scary then hella funny...haha] to telling scary stories to scaring ourselves...to watching thumbtanic [which is one funny thumb movie] ...to sleeping randomly to laughing and making jokes about stupid useless super powers...[ie. the ability to taste fabric] Then the next morning, just spent more time together.

On Sunday, spent the whole day with them again at the going away party :( it was sooo sad....just crying and taking pics... sighhh. Then me, my sis, and mar went to their house ONE LAST TIME with them...and ended up being the greatest moment with all of us!....we went crazy!!...literally!!!!!!!....singing crazy unknown cultural songs while dancing to them....to scary ourselves [deng, we really like getting scared]...to making tv commercials...to laughing hysterical!!!!!!!...it was just too great :) ...mann...that night was so awesome and funny!

Even though i just summarized my weekend with my best friends who are leaving.....the lifetime friendship we hold is undescribable. They are like my brother and sister....we act so crazy, its unbelievable...ahhaha...if only you could see, if only......

I will truly miss you guys already!!....Knowing your in a different local saddens me. And when ya'll lived here, I actually forgot that you guys were in the ministry. And moving is what you guys are used to. But it wasn't used to for me or any of us here in SA. UGH!!!!!!! So Ej called me last night after they got there...and i was so teary eyed, ok i was crying! And she was telling me how much she misses us already and all she can think about is Oct. 18 when she can see us again....i was so touched to hear that :)

I know it won't be the same without them... But that's life. You make friends as you go through your life...and eventually, they will go on to each other's separate ways and lives. And that really makes me sad. Yesterday at work I was reminiscing about my best friends and I being happy together, being care-free and everything... then i thought about the future how we'll all grow up and have our own lives, doing our own things...and it made me sad :( But i know, i know.....that's how it is, how its suppose to be. I realized that friends can't live with you forever and always be there to hang out and laugh, or they can't live with you at your house cuz i want them to be.... :( That's just not going to happen. [but wouldn't that be cool if it could???...we all live in a big mansion, each of us have different big houses but its still all together and we hang out and laugh everyday...] Ok, back to reality. . . . Yes, even though friends separate and go on and live their own lives....they can still always keep in touch and maintain their friendship. That there is true friends. Those who are still willing to hold on to their friendship and not let it fly away with the rest of the dust in the wind....then with no doubt, they'll always stay friends.

QUOTE OF THE BLOG:
"Friendship is like a dinosaur-- it may be extint but its remembered forever"
--Rafael
"True friends is when you can grab the corner of a wall and sing 'ah ye yah yah ah ah ye yah yah ah ye yah ah ah ah ah'..."
-Me

don't drag yourself down

Life is way more than it is than you think it is.

You know, you may not even know what life really is unless you really open up your heart and mind to something you've never opened up to before.

I always try to live my life to the fullest...that's my mentality, but i know there are things, AKA my problems and trials, that can trigger me to doing the opposite.

But how can one truly live life if they let their tribulations overcome them and win them over.

How can one fullfil their desire of a happier, meaningful life when they can't learn to stand up from a fall?? When they can't learn from their mistake and just drag themselves down??

What i learned through the trials i've overcomed is that i can't feel sorry for myself because i made a mistake or i can't keep mourning thinking that's just fine. With the help of God, and from the advice miguel has given me...i learned to accept that i made a mistake, learned from it, and repented....I used to always drag myself down. i was so narrow minded. now, i've never been so open-minded in my life....i accept more than i ever thought i would. i sometimes never understood the people around me....you know they always say to place yourself in their shoes...and now i really do my best to do it. It helps alot...it gives you new perspectives of things.

Arrogance can never take you anywhere....no where at all. Arrogance won't make you a better person...it won't make you look prettier or smarter. It'll only make you look narrow-minded and self-centered. Learn to accept yourself and others...I'm really trying to do it. ....i've opened up my mind to life and people...and problems.....and i'm learning alot from doing so. I believe the more thoughtful you are, the wiser you get.

QUOTE OF THE BLOG:
"Opening your mind to new things will open your eyes to new perspectives"
--Me

unimaginable

so i'm here in the computer lab at my school, right??...wrong, you don't know that i'm here. anyway, my first class was cancelled for some reason we have yet to understand. ..so i came here to the lab because there's no where else to go!!!...

i'm feeling this emotion called "sad"...and its been going around actually. there are always reasons why we feel this way [or that way, and this way, and that way...silly, lil wayne!] ..unless people feel sad for no apparent reason and just wants attention or just has a sad/depressed disease. well, then that's ok. *thumbs up*

i feel real sad even though that 'thing' that makes me sad haven't even happened yet. but STILL. its a depressing story..................it makes me so sad that...that...that i want to just run away, somewhere far far away from texas...to an open beautiful field with sunflowers and grass and beautiful trees everywhere...and just prance everywhere on a horse and yelling loud, "giddy yup, horsey, giddy up! there's only one life to live!!" then i'd kick the side of the horse and say once more...."come on horsey...run! don't make me yell some more, my voice will get hoarse!"....HAHAHAH get it?? ...get it??!!

QUOTE OF THE BLOG:

"When negative emotions overpower you, dream about prancing on horses"
--Me

eventful day

Today, as usual, four days a week, went to school...nothing interesting really happened....just grew more dendrites and thats it....

So, after that crazy shananagans...me and my mother ate with one of my best friends EJ and her parents at GOLDEN WOK. and well...that was quite adventurous. Ej made me try chicken feet. ...yes, CHICKEN feet...yes, the FEET of a chicken. i don't know about you but feet is just not my thing you know... hardy har-har. so0o0o...she first took a bite of her chicken feet, she was enjoying it. then me...stabbed it with a fork and made it run....hahah. so i bit a piece of the middle toe....GAGS. ... man, i'm not a chicken feet fan. so i just ate shrimp :)

So, after that fun hour...i went to universal city with my bro to perform for church...and spent more time with my ate lieyette as we drove with her there and back home...had great conversations and funny ones tooo :) me and ate lieyette were just talking about different stuff in life like problems, drama, love, getting lost on the road, etc....and one thing she said that really got to me was "after every storm, there's always sunshine". HOW right can she be!!?? after every problem or tribulations we have, they'll always be happiness or blessings afterwards :) this truly inspires me!!...truly it does :)

QUOTE OF THE BLOG:

"True friends will laugh with you, cry with you, & may even eat chicken feet with you"

--Me

first time

Hmmm. Interesting...Indeed it is. Perhaps, perchance.

Anyway, enough with that... A blog site is something different. I'm giving it a try, why not right?? Myspace was getting a bit tiring, but i'll always still use it, of course! i mean, who wouldn't? Your aunt probably has one and don't know it.

Trying new things is like... growing new dendrites in your brain. Wait, that's actually true. Woopsies. Why not grow dendrites? When you learn something new, you grow a dendrite in your brain... What i actually like about dendrites is that they look like branches of a tree-- and you know how i completely adore trees!!!...Anyway, when you stop using certain information, those dendrites actually dissappear :(

I'm starting to think my drawing/painting dendrites are faded away!!!!! i won't let it happen. don't let anything happen like that to you!!!...keep doing what you love doing, and go freakin learn something new! Having alot of dendrites actually turns the opposite sex on.

QUOTE OF THE BLOG:

"It's not that you're unintelligent and unattractive-- You just need to grow more dendrites"

-Me